Wednesday, April 26, 2017

Getting Fit


When I graduated from high school and went to college I was set on becoming an overachiever. I did. While most of my friends gained 15 pounds or so... I overachieved. I gained 20! Weight had never been a struggle for me, and found myself to be really bad at making healthy decisions when it came to exercise and food.

Once I graduated college and started working--I was so busy that I would forget to eat. I was so exhausted that I would choose sleep over meals in a lot of cases. Without even noticing, and certainly without any planning--I went from a size 8 and 140 lbs to a size 2 at 115 lbs. I didn't exercise, but I didn't really eat either.

I know what you are all thinking, "stupid skinny girl complaining about her weight like she has a problem." I want to tell you that I do have a problem. BUT it is not with weight-- at least right now.


 I got married and got back to a more sustainable weight of about 125-130 lbs. Then I got pregnant, had my daughter, and started breastfeeding. Let me tell you--that is just a glorious thing. Suddenly--I could eat whatever I wanted, whenever I wanted to eat it, and yet I kept losing weight. It was magic for me. Then...I weaned, and suddenly I was not used to having to watch what I ate like I was in my early twenties. AND I was starting to feel old.

By old I mean that I was starting to get sore from taking the stairs, or have trouble when I didn't stretch before taking a walk. Or be out of breath from just carrying my daughter around the house. I realized that while I was still a size 4--I was anything but healthy.


That thought really freaked me out because it goes against everything we have been taught--that looking good equals feeling good. I look pretty good in clothes (it never looks the same after having a child), but I didn't feel strong, healthy, or good.

As a mom I want to take care of myself. I want to be there for my daughter, and that includes being healthy enough to care for my daughter. So my husband and I are trying to make a commitment to getting healthy, eating right, and exercising regularly. It is certainly harder than I thought it would be.

We signed up a gym membership at a gym really close to our house--no excuses right! Then one day, on one of the many groups that I follow as a blogger, there was a fitness blogger who was looking for beta testers for her new 30 day workout program and nutrition program. I jumped on it. I mean--it couldn't be that hard!

We are on day three of 30 and I have never been so tired in my life at the end of the day. The first lower body workout almost killed me, and I am still, 2 days later, incredibly sore. Nevertheless, I have never felt more energized in the morning, and more healthy at the end of a long day. It's been three days and my clothes are already fitting better. I don't get winded walking up the stairs anymore--although I have wanted to cry because I am so sore. The workouts are really challenging, but I found it to get easier with each repetition.

The main issue that I am having is with the food. I am really hungry at the end of the day. I am following all of the rules--but I am just not a big veggie person. I am trying. I haven't broken yet. My after dinner snack last night was cucumbers and hummus--yum.

Will power can be a fickle thing, but I am really trying. I desperately want to get in shape before I decide if I will be trying to get pregnant in the near distant future. So what better way to hold myself accountable than to talk to all of you about my journey. While I can't share specifics of the program--you would have to purchase the plan yourself--I will tell you all about my successes or failures with it. And let you know at the end what my results are.

Here's to getting healthy for my baby(ies)!

Caroline


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